When I was living in a 16 sqare meter (172 sq feet) studio apartement in Paris, I had a mini fridge with three shelves and a freezer that was hardly large enough hold a box of frozen peas, but it was plenty large for me. In fact, most of the time, my fridge was half empty. I went to the market or the grocery store every 3rd day and bought produce that was fresh and appealing. My fridge was half empty because it was filled mostly with dairy with an occasional cut of meat and the typical condiments that one keeps refridgerated. I kept most of my fruits and vegetables out on the counter to use either that day or the next. It was a simple life without large wholesale warehouses and gigantic supermarkets. I went to the market and bought what was in season (and thus resaonably priced). And for some reason, I was able to cook for myself without having to worry about leftovers or rotton produce.
Now, I have a large American refridgerator equipped with a meat/cheese compartment, an egg tray and a little place to hide the box of baking soda (to hide the smell of that tupperware filled with who-knows-what). My refridgerator now would be the size of my kitchenette in Paris. It is huge! And yet, strangely enough, (while my mini fridge in Paris was always half empty), my big white American fridge is always full. There is a 5-pound bag of carrots on the bottom shelf, far too many eggs for my egg tray, a extra-large jar of peanut butter and everything else you can possible think of. The shelves are literally overflowing. It is more food than even I can eat (and believe me, I can eat freakishly larget amounts of food). And yet, I still find myself going to the grocery store as if the food I already have is not enough.
As I was searching through my fridge the other day, digging through the 5-pound bag of carrots, it hit me: I had become a bulk shopper. It is after all the economic solution. I can buy twice as much for exactly the same price. It’s the mentality of the hundreds of people who crowd the nearby Costco store every weekend. I jump into my car and head to costco where I can buy a pound of blueberries, a 10-pound bag of potatoes, 8 porkchops + 2 free, a pound of sliced provolone cheese, a box of 24 (yes, 24!) frozen pizzas and condiments and spices to last me a lifetime. It is really quite thrilling…that is until I go home and try to fit everything in my fridge. And then the real adventure begins: consuming everthing I just bought. I open my freezer and frozen porkchops fall on my head. No matter how many carrots I eat, I still seem to always have half a bag left. And frankly, after eating 2 pounds of carrots, I can hardly even stand the sight of the orange, pointy roots, let alone the bland, stale, refrigerated taste. I make a disgusted face at the food in my fridge and go, yet again, to the grocery store.
It is a vicious cycle, but I am beginning to realize that buying bulk may not be the most economic way to shop on a budget. I do, after all, end up throwing away at least 2 pounds of spotty, mushy carrots after a few weeks. My meat tastes like freezer burn and everything has lost its fresh flavor. I buy and I eat and I believe I am saving money, but I wonder if I have sacrificed quality for the quantity. I can eat and eat; I can warm up frozen pizzas, pop some frozen pot stickers in the microwave. But I am no longer satisfied.
I think back to my days in Paris, in my small Parisian kitchen (if you can even call it that) and the pleasure I took in eating. I didn’t have a microwave. My freezer could hardly hold a small box of frozen peas let along 8 porkchops or 10 frozen pizzas. Everything had to be fresh; there was no other way. I would have never been able to fit a Costco-size anything into my little mini-fridge. And so, I went grocery shopping more often and as a consequence, I often had fresh, staisfying meals. I bought fresh asparagus in the spring, tomatos in the summer and rich squash in the fall and the winter. And food made me happy.
Because I think I was healthier in Paris, I am slowly trying to empty out my Bulk American fridge. I am trying to revert to half-empty refrigerator syndrome and eat as fresh as possible. And I might even be able to save a dollar or two in the process.




